Rebirth

Ok Hi all!

Before 2022 ends, I want to write something here. It's been more than a year after my last post here?? Crazy how time flew by.

In 2020, suddenly I'm married to the love of my life, and unfortunately I got to experience miscarriage after months of trying to conceive.

The tragedy sank me to my lowest and I had to self-heal to be able to put myself all together again.

Surprisingly, the universe gifted me a beautiful angel in 2021. Just a couple months after miscarriage, I was pregnant again. So many feelings were running through my soul, happiness and anxiety took up most of the space. I can say it's the most difficult yet exciting time of my whole life. I've always wanted a baby, but the miscarriage pain still stung and it makes me worry about almost everything.

Long story short, I finally succeed delivering my rainbow baby to this world, her name is Kamila. I also share about it on my youtube channel. 

Birthing her felt like it was also the time of MY rebirth. I got new perspectives.

First thing that came up to my mind was, I need to find my true tranquility, because I want to raise my baby with conscious parenting.

It brought me to my self-discovery journey. What do I truly seek? How to keep me sane? How do I fill my love tank so then I could fill my daughter's love tank properly?

I'm still learning about these stuffs too and it's ok if I haven't figure all things out right now because this is a lifetime job.

Other than that, there's a few things I haven't mentioned here and just wanna share about it. Got a new job in 2019 as a Quality Control Supervisor but had to resign earlier this year due to my husband's job that required us to move here to a different island. It's been like 6 months that we're here, and it's a quite lovely place here. Also in 2019 I got an offer to study masters abroad but had to decline it because of several reasons. I really hope I will get another chance to study abroad together with my husband. But for right now, I just want to live the moment. Take it slow, one step at a time, and one day we're gonna checked everything on our bucket list insyaallah.

Well, that's it. A lil update from me. Can't wait to see what 2023 have for us🌞

Happy new year!